How can it be that i always find that it is Friday? I don’t mean that i find that it is Friday in the sense that i feel like “yay, another weekend… isn’t life grand?”. Rather I mean that “what, another week done, and even more things that i will have to try to get done next week… will i never get ahead?”. I try not to think like a fatalist, or futilist, or what have you, but sometimes it is inescapable.

Which probably explains why I am blogging rather than sleeping right now. My mind has too many anxieties in it right now i think. and knowing how much i will feel it in the morning only makes my mind more restless. In an odd coincidence, just tonight i was recalling how ‘back in my college days’ i used to have the occasional sleepless night like this, and those nights where the only nights i actually did any running.

This is all coming out backwards. To begin, tonight I spent some time at Andy’s house in Mechanicsburg. Andy had invited all of us from work over to his place to watch ‘The Office’ and stuff, since many of us watch it anyways. This was the first time i have spent time outside of work with any of my colleagues, and it was fun, but different. I did run into Mike from work at the Messiah homecoming, but that was different. Needless to say, while there someone started talking about how they get up way early in the morning to go running before work, as a morning routine. and then i said my whole thing about how i hadn’t done that since college, and even then it was late at night, not early in the morning. Although now that i think about it there were several times when i got up early in the morning to go running too. I forget why i ever would have wanted to do that.

Tomorrow I am also going to be ’shadowed’ at work by someone from Lancaster Mennonite High School. Shadow Day is something that all the juniors do, it is a day to basically get a feel for the requirements and activities of a job that you might be interested in. I never got to take part in my shadow day because that day fell in the middle of the time that i was sick with mono. So tomorrow i will finally get to take part in Shadow Day! I am pretty sure that this is also part of my restlessness. It is a little intimidating knowing that you will have someone sitting around watching everything you do all day. I mean, how can i keep it from being boring? I have some sort of an idea of what i will try to accomplish tomorrow – hopefully a decent mix of worthwhile tasks, and interesting things that my shadow can help with and feel interested in. I mean, i have to sell the idea of being a computer programmer to him now don’t I. :p